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 Chua Yan Ting SIXTEEN :) CSS CSSRCYNCOs '08 & '09 SS501, HJB, Family Outing ♥ 김형준, 사랑해! |
Monday, November 16, 200911/16/2009 12:47:00 AM
- I'd never thought I will feel like this, but I guess I'm wrong. That I will even miss the 'O's. Maybe my brain's fried from all the revision, or not. But getting through this phase in my life makes me feel apprehensive. Of what will come after this. So daunting. Or maybe all I need is a good dose of reality. - I don't get what the fuss is all about. People keep asking me, 'So, do you think you will do well for the Os?'. The truth is I don't dare to expect anything of my results. I really don't want to rise my hopes and watch them fall. The fact that some people aren't that supportive is not helping. Just a blow more to my confidence, or lack thereof. Thanks alot, but I don't need that. I can live without it. Just because my PSLE results weren't that impressive, there's no need to do this to me. - To my girlfriend :)  Cr: prettyboy
Sunday, October 25, 200910/25/2009 04:42:00 PM
Go! :)
Friday, October 16, 200910/16/2009 12:29:00 AM
- I'm feeling a bit stressed out now. The feeling of pure anxiety. Ugh. - Something happened yesterday(wed), that warmed my heart. Somehow, I'm not sure why, I get surprised by the actions of others around me. First, by the birthday gifts, then by the reactions I got from sending the email out, and then now this. Hah, after 4 years, I met up with my primary school mate and passed him something after his pestering. I'd never expected to receive something from him. I was shocked that he gave me a box of chocolates. Okay, it's not without purpose, but still, I was touched. The boy whom I had always bantered with, the one who had once hit my face with an object when we were eight, the one who always teased me because I am one day younger than he is, gave me a gift. I was understandably stunned -.- My first gift of chocolates from a guy. Haha, and it's not even Valentine's. I guess, during this span of 4 years, he had grown. My mom was like, 'So gentlemanly!'. And I couldn't help remembering about the time I got hit on the face(it hurt like hell). Suddenly, I was relieving all of my primary school memories. It's been 4 years since I last saw any of my primary school mates, with the exception of yuhan and kevin, whom I saw ytd. I was also surprised at how easy the conversation flow was yesterday. I guess eight years of friendship isn't something to be underestimated. People whom I have known for half of my life. Maybe that's why I agreed to help. Because, somehow, there's this drawing need for me to do so. People whom I had gone through tough times with. A phase of my life which only they saw. My buddies I made when I was eight. I could even remember the date. How heartwarming. To me, at least. Life is so full of surprises. -  My baby, my taeyang :)Ok, I won't deny it; this pix looks a bit spooky. But still, it's for the Rebirth album. So a different look. But I think it looks nice :)
Friday, October 9, 200910/09/2009 10:45:00 PM
Ah, I really miss my squadmates. It's really long since we last met, isn't it? Haha, I'm really thankful for the birthday gifts you all gave last week :) - Really surprised to get a gift from the kcubes. I had never even thought that they would remember my birthday. Hah, thanks for it though, I really like the two cows. Haha, and of course, the significance behind them. It is the most meaningful gift I'd ever received. And of course, thanks to the others who remembered my birthday and gave me presents: jy, yq, joel and yt. I forgot who wished me a happy birthday, but yeah, thanks. Although I can do without those repeated birthday and belated birthday greetings. *coughs - 'O' levels coming soon. Ugh, I've been under some pressure? Not really pressure, just some hopes pinned onto me. Got two you-must-get-an-A1-for-english talks from Ms Ng. Not to mention a certain amount of shoulder poking, staring and my blushing scarlet. - Sometimes, I can't help but to think that those you-can-do-it statements from others are just encouragement, not the truth. I got told that to many times, that it did not boost my confidence, but instead, causing it to dip even further. I was even told that I looked relaxed when I was actually anything but. I guess I'm good at hiding my emotions. But I have to be optimistic, right? I just need to help myself out of the induced misery. All the best to myself. - On a happier note, HJB had his DJ-ing videoed on my birthday! Heh, 나는사랑해요,김형준!
Friday, September 25, 20099/25/2009 10:13:00 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINGYU AN JEROEN, TWO OF MY DEAREST SQUADMATES :) Hah, finally sixteen! My turn in a few days time. - Got back results. I guess I expected as much. I must really thank my lucky stars for getting this, really. I didn't study much. BUCK UP, YAN TING! I really need a harsher wake up call. - My L1R5 is appalling. When I first got back my english results, I could have sworn that I almost went into cardiac arrest when I saw my situational writing mark. And receiving more and more papers back, were like more blows that push me further into the abyss. I really need some encouragement. To know that I can really do it and achieve my desired grades. - Oh right, enough with the moaning. I don't need my spirits to be lower anymore. As if my flu was not enough to make up for it. - I really need to pull myself away from distractions! Argh, self discipline,yt!
Tuesday, September 1, 20099/01/2009 12:18:00 AM
 - I totally screwed up for today's amath paper. So disappointed :( - Teacher's Day today! Whoopedo. - I wonder if any of my PS mates went back to PS?
Sunday, August 30, 20098/30/2009 10:27:00 PM
  - Chemistry and Amath tomorrow! Moving on.. |
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